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I am a murderer
Sep. 6th, 2010 07:02 pmAn Echo Bazaar tribute.
I am a murderer.
I did not do it willingly, but I had little choice. I must be ready to do anything it takes. My daughter's murderer has already slipped past my fingers, once.
When the next time comes, the next time when the villain is near, I must not hesitate. The opportunity may only present itself for a short while. At that time, I must be ready to do anything without hesitation. I cannot know whether I'll be ready on that crucial moment, not unless I have already done the unthinkable before.
I have murdered. I have taken a person's life. Never again may she walk in this world again, not on the streets of Fallen London, nor in the shadows of the Tomb-Colonies. And I must do this again. Many, many times, until my soul is so stained with blood that doing it again will not even give me pause.
Only then can I be prepared to do what I must. Only then can I know I am ready.
May God have mercy on my soul.
I am a murderer.
I did not do it willingly, but I had little choice. I must be ready to do anything it takes. My daughter's murderer has already slipped past my fingers, once.
When the next time comes, the next time when the villain is near, I must not hesitate. The opportunity may only present itself for a short while. At that time, I must be ready to do anything without hesitation. I cannot know whether I'll be ready on that crucial moment, not unless I have already done the unthinkable before.
I have murdered. I have taken a person's life. Never again may she walk in this world again, not on the streets of Fallen London, nor in the shadows of the Tomb-Colonies. And I must do this again. Many, many times, until my soul is so stained with blood that doing it again will not even give me pause.
Only then can I be prepared to do what I must. Only then can I know I am ready.
May God have mercy on my soul.
